Not My Better Self

Not My Better Self

I fear and I doubt, and

I just feel so tired,

So weak—too weak,

Too flawed,

Too small,

Too slow,

Too late,

Too afraid, and so

I am not my better self.

But some time I may

Sneak past my small cares and

Find out a new beauty to my life, and

I am grateful again,

And growing.

(3/25/2010)

Walking (2008)

Walking

Rough twigs and sharp rocks poke my

feet as they walk. "Why can't the whole

path be clear and cool with soft sand

and fresh grass?" I ask. The sadness

in my heart echos fear and danger of

losing my way. A single daisy faces blue sky.

I want to run.

(8/5/2008)

The Sky (1997-ish)

The Sky

There must be something great

'bout that place we call the sky

where wispy rainbows hang

and graceful eagles fly.

There must be something grand

where colossus mountains grow.

There every tree doth reach

and from there all rivers flow.

There must be something mighty

that holds the great sun high

to raise it in the morning

and lay it low 'fore nigh.

There must be something special

in the space over the trees

that cheers our waking moment

and fills our pleasant dreams.

There must be something gracious

above the seas and land,

with billowed harlequin face

and warm extending hand.

There must be something powerful

that sparks great light and flame

and belches forth a blast

that makes our greatest tame.

And where'd we be today

without the great big sky?

Without its loving rain?

Without its twinkling eye?

But no, it's worse than that

for if the sky should fall

we'd have no lives to live:

No, nothing here at all.

There must be something good

that makes us want to learn

and makes us want to fly,

and that our souls do yearn.

(1997, 2/27/2010)

I hadn't posted anything new here for over a month, so I decided to share an older poem again today. Life has been busy for me lately, in good ways! I hope this poem captures some sense of growth and the awakening of springtime. I've dated it originally to 1997 because that is the date on the computer file I have, but I think I may have written a version of it a few years earlier and expanded it in 1997.